We Always have someone that we admire , just because we want to be like them , but in my case is a Little bit different. because I do not want to be like her , I like who I am and I do not think I have to change in any aspect I’m not saying that I’m perfect but I’m proud of the person I am . It was on may 23th of 2009 that my life make a 180 twist , It was a sunny saturday and it looks like a normal and boring saturday like always , but it was not. My cousin was in the hospital because she had cancer his name was Helka in our family we said to her Helkita , and every saturday we came to visit her , this saturday like always we came to the hospital “El Pilar” to visit her. I was sitting on the sofa next to my cousin room and a lady came next to me. It was a old gorgeous lady , with white short hair that it looks almost like cotton ,she had a pink long dress with flower prints on it ,and a Brown mocasins , she has a big precious Green eyes with long eyelashes, his nose was very White almost pale ,with Brown freckles and a lot of wrinkles. She has a beautiful and radiant White skin with tiny red lips and his mouth full of wisdom. And then she tell me why are you in here swettie? And I tell her uhm well my cousin has cancer and I came to visit her. She tell me oh really I have cancer too , what is your name? I tell her it was Mariandre , where do you have the cancer? What is your name lady? My name is Ana Isabel she said, and I dont even know in how many parts I have the cancer, I already lost the count. Last time it was spread all the way to my pancreas but thank God I’m steal alive and I do not reproach anything. An I was amazed of how she didnt aproach anything so I tell Isabel that if she already lose his hope and Isabel said no ,hope and faith is the last thing we have to lose in life. I was impressed about the way of thinking of Isabel , I mean she has cancer and it is spread almost to his entire body how not being depresead with this awful situation. So we keep on talking and she said to me “Im not afraid of diying I’m just afraid of the way Im going to die” I mean who in this world is afraid of dIying if you are going with God and live a joyfull and happy life ,well of course if you are a good person , she laughed. Every Word she said was full of wisdom and knowledge. I admire his positivism and the way she thinks of life. She also said to me that life is not to please everybody but to please yourself , but she also said Im not saying we dont have to help others but we do not have to make everyone happy because that is just impossible. I was stunned by what everything she was telling me , she told me that she has four kids, three boys and one girl they didn’t live in Guatemala and she lost comunication with the four of them and she tell me that they didn’t know that she has cancer but I’m okay she replies I’m just confident that every human has his or her bad time and now is my turn. In my head I just think this is not just a bad time this is a horrible situation that is not fear for her. We kept on talking and she said to me that she is a nurse in the hospital and every sunday she is not suppose to come but she came to the hospital to visit the sick children and she prayed for them and she was praying for my cousin , she tell me I think that your cousin Helkita is a beatifull angel and dont worry everything is going to be fine for her ,some people would not agree of what God choice is but it would be better for her. I was totally confused and I didn’t get it in that moment. I left the hospital and the next day in the morning may 24th my father received a call of my aunt saying that Helkita dies we all were devasted and we couldnt believe it , months later I came to the hospital for anual check out and I found Ana Isabel she hugged me like no one has ever hugged me and the only thing she tell me was I hope you understand the things I said to you and she left. That night I didnt sleep remembering everything she told me the night before Helkia died and I remember she said “dont worry everything is going to be fine for her ,some people would not agree of what God choice is but it would be better for her” so then my life change now I understand the purpose of life , life is not triying to please everybody because that is imposible , but life is trying that people live their life to the fullest , maybe someones life last less than others but for me LIFE WORTHS! And I’m going to take this trip with no regrets. I’m really thankfull of everything Ana Isabel taught me that day and I know that by now she is a beatifull angel in heaven <3 .
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